Letters from Germany - Aus Der Traum
Posted: Sat Aug 29, 2026 2:18 pm
Hello Admin / Site owner / webmaster / Hamish … I don’t know who you are,
I like your site and open thoughts and rant on development of the content and channels of CTTM after March 2021 and I like checking into your site occasionally for updates. I like questioning and researching backgrounds.
I am not a long time listener to AW/CTTM, only started around 2022, infrequently listening to privately uploading YT channels and the YT CTTM channel. Listened there to original podcasts. I did not notice at once that the person AW was already “deceased” until early 2023 and that the YT channel CTTM was set up and run by someone else when a woman talked very lengthy at the start of the original shows. And the old original shows were often cut and re-edited a lot. That made me curious what happened to the original host and so I found out he was no more (doing the show, maybe retired).
By profession I was in business research in earlier years and as I liked the original talks in general (+/- pro and cons) I wanted to find out and search what was going on. As an explanation was not obvious or given – who is doing it now and why (it is unusual to have a family takeover in this type of business). I came across one podcast of M – Fortitude – and it sounded hesitant, quite acted and phony and unbelievable in arguments why she is suddenly there. No photos together, strange settings, some of hers really look photoshopped into scene.
Also noted some discrepancies and contradictions in some of her own guest shows. I wanted to know what she is talking about in this ” Real History” series. So I listened to a few. Some had interesting guests, most were so tedious I stopped but I listened maybe through 6-7 of them completely. They give some “inside stories – made up or not – but contradict with M and AWs account (take the “hospital story” from 2016)
For example these 2:
“Real History” with Melissa – Ep. 50 – The Singing Chiropractor – Jan. 18, 2024 (link easily found – did not want to send link here):
“One person who really met AW”. The story is unbelievably hilarious. The friend-listener went into hospital each day 2016 to make sure AW had fresh bottled water etc. AW asked him to drive him urgently to hospital 3 times, declining each time of fear from doctors, and when he finally went then by ambulance. (Where was partner M? Yes, she is now called “his partner” everywhere or “the custodian of his site and legacy”! That’s a legal term and I think they were business partners of CTTM).
This friend is called Mark from Sudbury, retired as chiropractor at age 48 in 2008 or so and since had a good time. Started to get to meet AW in 2012, drove up to his house a year or so later. Helped hm with digging the septic tank in pouring rain with Mark’s girlfriend bringing home made soup to warm up. Later he loaned him cars as he was “so poor” for car repairs – for months. I cannot judge if Mark is a real friend or a great story provider. He claims to have been a “Toastmaster” member, maybe he is a great story teller then. He brings in how he met M – maybe to show she actually lived there – he visited AW unannounced and there she came out of the bedroom, introduced by AW as “my book-keeper”. The whole thing
shows that M’s And AWs stories don’t sit properly.
“Real History” with Melissa – Ep. 19 – Judy in Disguise with Glasses – May 25, 2023 (link easily found – did not want to send link here):
Judy came before Melissa to visit to do what – not clear. Give help, cook, clean, research. Out of Arizona, by plane
strange. Who would do that – so unreal, all have so much money to help relentlessly and altruistically and fly in and out on own expenses, not knowing the person? hahaha
Picked up by AW and “his helper” (for wood chopping and webmaster, also funny, or was this his real partner?) by car at a corner café, questioned, and then brought to the “shack”, did not like it there and left before time. Then came M., no hot and no running water (laundry at a creek, water well, laundromat in the unloved city frequently?
), did the cleaning, cooking, book-keeping, printing, editing, uploading, never saw her family once in 13 years but now seems to be very close to her Aunt Betty and her brother (in Fortitude there she claims not being one day apart from AW in 13 years besides for the Alex Jones interview). Judy then flew in a second time before M existed there to accompany AW to a Lasik eye surgery in Sudbury in 2006/7 as his “helper” was away. Lasik in those days was very expensive, let’s say $ 2000 per eye. Very expensive for someone living on donations (this was not an OHIP covered treatment! Has to be paid privately. And for someone who does not trust doctors, surgeons, hospitals and the whole system, a very daring move.
The stories are just manufactured, giving maybe a tiny hint of truth (location), rest is story-telling. A man in the woods with his dog like “The man in the mountain” (American series in the 1970s).
Checking for the person MR she has mostly lived in California during the 2000s, many location moves there before back to Keene, TX. No hint for Sudbury, Estaire, Toronto etc. In one of her shows she laughingly thought it funny that Canadians have to buy their booze in a special shop and she forgot how they are called. I lived for 5 years in Toronto and I still remember the “liquor stores” as for Europe it is also not known to shop for alcohol outside of the supermarkets. How can you forget this having lived there for 13 odd years.
As she was marked down as a literary agent in California with Field-Cech (company dissolved) and a book-keeping company (if the data is correct of the search engines but several searches brought this up) she is skilled in providing sales stories for promoting someone’s written work or show.
Also still visible (don’t know if active) is the “Alan Watt Media Inc.”, registered as such in 2014 (could still find it in 2024 on searches), 591 Elbow Ridge Rd, Estaire, Sudbury, Ontario P3E 4N1. Listed employees: 11, Revenue $ 2.9 Mio. annually.
My assumption is – as I do not know any of the CTTM persons involved – just from the facts, contradictions in story-telling around CTTM, this was/is just a business media entity, probably sponsored by those above, to spread the revelation of things as do / did Rosa Koire, Patrick Wood, James Corbett etc and similar persons in other countries. AW gave his name for the registration for the media company and then maybe sold it out to M. Would explain the long time gap before she came first out as “wife”. Deal needed to be settled juridically first. There are two copyrights, one for AW and one for CTTM! Royalties might still go to AW and heirs. Also he might just have retired. The “deceased” announcement on March 4, 21 – interesting date – and the secrets around could be a sign there was just a cut and takeover in business. They rarely write he “died” – or the “dead researcher” – always “passed” or “deceased”.
I am not a native English speaker and to me it sounds strange to talk in posh words when everybody says colloquially “dead”. Last I saw: “he departed in 2021” – to me this sounds just, well he left, he retired or so.
Interesting with all “freedom, truth advocators, researchers, podcasters” is how they invite and promote each other now constantly. I liked watching the low member YT channel Heys Reviews – suddenly he teamed up with and strongly promotes M for the CTTM book-club. All CTTM fans in and clapping, as you say, all gullible believers in everything, no questions, no discrepancies noted by them. They don’t mind a paywall for substack. Same with Sheep Farm Studio YT channel – giving M a stage and deleting critical comments not really questioning anything with her, just applauding. Dr Michael Yeadon too, Delingpole, David A. Hughes. A circle of friends
To keep a memory alive, to promote the good work or “legacy” it only needs open archives, no preambling and no money as the man has given it up (dead or departed / retired). But it is and always was a business and, therefore, expensive flash drives and monthly subscription fees are needed. Depending on how many people are still involved, maybe now more than these 11 marked with the AW media company. Interesting too is that there always were and are (true or not) so many “volunteers” doing the videos, uploading, streaming, clearing old audios, preparing material for the flash drives and doing the graphics for CTTM (mentioned in podcasts that their names will show, never did). They are given out as fans, maybe they also belong to this company? They all are like Mark the chiropractor, retired with loads of time and apparently rich? Don’t need to work, have family ties/chores?
One of these helpers broke up with M: Warlyndi aka Diana the transcriber. She seems real and honest when she talks but don’t know her. And the 2 interviews with her from Real History have been deleted on all channels since. By accident I saw on the debess Bitchute channel a comment from her like “Please contact me, I have questions, I was friends with MR for the past 3 years (only! Although she was transcribing AW shows for 17 years! And back then no friends with M?) but ended our friendship. I have found out some things about M.” I found this so strange as I have listened to M’s podcast with her before that I screenshotted that. Next day the comment under Debess bitchute was deleted.
Warlyndi has meticulously mapped out and created series of themed videos like The authors, The controllers, The experiments, Signs and Symbols etc. – I liked these edited versions very much. So why donate to CTTM when the work is done by “volunteers” (if true)!
She says that here:
S1 EP4 — Structure of Channel – YouTube – warlyndi
Contact Info for Diana [email protected] website: warlyndi.com — Alan Watt’s web site cuttingthroughthematrix.com AlanWattCTTM / @alanwattcttm7266 My Interviews “Real History” with Melissa Ep …
And I think the “shack” – on Google map it shows two houses there – might just have been the business location of CTTM / AW Media Inc. and living was maybe next door in the bigger house with the satellite dish on top of the roof. I saw one photo on a AW video from a private creator with a picture stating “AW’s driveway and Hamish” – looking on Google maps the dog runs down the private driveway from the big house to the “shack” – one can see it comparing the satellite view. The man living there now has put up a video on YT! No comment, just showing the driveway and the house (that is the house M also showed in Fortitude as being without running water etc). How come no neighbour ever noticed who lived there before and who died there. Well, research here is kind of fun.
So being poor or not… rather not. It is big business for donations as the AW Media Inc. report shows in (old) figures. There is an Ontario business company number with his company but I have no access to the register to check for actuality.
Yes, there is a business feud going on about money, not convinced that it is about any relationships. All involved are way over 60 – how long do you hold grudges or jealousy. I think it is just about money.
Not worth listening to the CTTM channel products now if one is looking for AW content as his original podcasts are on Internet Archive and still on the CTTM website under the respective years of publishing. The new YT channel has not much to do with the previous content but maybe moves into sort of book-club reading or so.
I will keep checking into your website and see what else you will find out over time and put on your site. Will be interesting.
Regine
PS
In Sheep Farm Studio Interview and previous other one M now added AW had a medical profession (I think that was what John McCormick was mentioning in his comment “The lowdown on Alan”- what you listed above) – before in the Fakeology interview of 2022 together with Weston they could not answer any question, anything! What he worked before, the bio, the bands he played for, the countries he travelled, why he ended up in Canada etc. And the host did not dive deeper and question them. Now she has stories about his parents and his education (a bit). Maybe he gave her permission now.
I am not a long time listener to AW/CTTM, only started around 2022, infrequently listening to privately uploading YT channels and the YT CTTM channel. Listened there to original podcasts. I did not notice at once that the person AW was already “deceased” until early 2023 and that the YT channel CTTM was set up and run by someone else when a woman talked very lengthy at the start of the original shows. And the old original shows were often cut and re-edited a lot. That made me curious what happened to the original host and so I found out he was no more (doing the show, maybe retired).
By profession I was in business research in earlier years and as I liked the original talks in general (+/- pro and cons) I wanted to find out and search what was going on. As an explanation was not obvious or given – who is doing it now and why (it is unusual to have a family takeover in this type of business). I came across one podcast of M – Fortitude – and it sounded hesitant, quite acted and phony and unbelievable in arguments why she is suddenly there. No photos together, strange settings, some of hers really look photoshopped into scene.
Also noted some discrepancies and contradictions in some of her own guest shows. I wanted to know what she is talking about in this ” Real History” series. So I listened to a few. Some had interesting guests, most were so tedious I stopped but I listened maybe through 6-7 of them completely. They give some “inside stories – made up or not – but contradict with M and AWs account (take the “hospital story” from 2016)
For example these 2:
“Real History” with Melissa – Ep. 50 – The Singing Chiropractor – Jan. 18, 2024 (link easily found – did not want to send link here):
“One person who really met AW”. The story is unbelievably hilarious. The friend-listener went into hospital each day 2016 to make sure AW had fresh bottled water etc. AW asked him to drive him urgently to hospital 3 times, declining each time of fear from doctors, and when he finally went then by ambulance. (Where was partner M? Yes, she is now called “his partner” everywhere or “the custodian of his site and legacy”! That’s a legal term and I think they were business partners of CTTM).
This friend is called Mark from Sudbury, retired as chiropractor at age 48 in 2008 or so and since had a good time. Started to get to meet AW in 2012, drove up to his house a year or so later. Helped hm with digging the septic tank in pouring rain with Mark’s girlfriend bringing home made soup to warm up. Later he loaned him cars as he was “so poor” for car repairs – for months. I cannot judge if Mark is a real friend or a great story provider. He claims to have been a “Toastmaster” member, maybe he is a great story teller then. He brings in how he met M – maybe to show she actually lived there – he visited AW unannounced and there she came out of the bedroom, introduced by AW as “my book-keeper”. The whole thing
“Real History” with Melissa – Ep. 19 – Judy in Disguise with Glasses – May 25, 2023 (link easily found – did not want to send link here):
Judy came before Melissa to visit to do what – not clear. Give help, cook, clean, research. Out of Arizona, by plane
Picked up by AW and “his helper” (for wood chopping and webmaster, also funny, or was this his real partner?) by car at a corner café, questioned, and then brought to the “shack”, did not like it there and left before time. Then came M., no hot and no running water (laundry at a creek, water well, laundromat in the unloved city frequently?
The stories are just manufactured, giving maybe a tiny hint of truth (location), rest is story-telling. A man in the woods with his dog like “The man in the mountain” (American series in the 1970s).
Checking for the person MR she has mostly lived in California during the 2000s, many location moves there before back to Keene, TX. No hint for Sudbury, Estaire, Toronto etc. In one of her shows she laughingly thought it funny that Canadians have to buy their booze in a special shop and she forgot how they are called. I lived for 5 years in Toronto and I still remember the “liquor stores” as for Europe it is also not known to shop for alcohol outside of the supermarkets. How can you forget this having lived there for 13 odd years.
As she was marked down as a literary agent in California with Field-Cech (company dissolved) and a book-keeping company (if the data is correct of the search engines but several searches brought this up) she is skilled in providing sales stories for promoting someone’s written work or show.
Also still visible (don’t know if active) is the “Alan Watt Media Inc.”, registered as such in 2014 (could still find it in 2024 on searches), 591 Elbow Ridge Rd, Estaire, Sudbury, Ontario P3E 4N1. Listed employees: 11, Revenue $ 2.9 Mio. annually.
My assumption is – as I do not know any of the CTTM persons involved – just from the facts, contradictions in story-telling around CTTM, this was/is just a business media entity, probably sponsored by those above, to spread the revelation of things as do / did Rosa Koire, Patrick Wood, James Corbett etc and similar persons in other countries. AW gave his name for the registration for the media company and then maybe sold it out to M. Would explain the long time gap before she came first out as “wife”. Deal needed to be settled juridically first. There are two copyrights, one for AW and one for CTTM! Royalties might still go to AW and heirs. Also he might just have retired. The “deceased” announcement on March 4, 21 – interesting date – and the secrets around could be a sign there was just a cut and takeover in business. They rarely write he “died” – or the “dead researcher” – always “passed” or “deceased”.
I am not a native English speaker and to me it sounds strange to talk in posh words when everybody says colloquially “dead”. Last I saw: “he departed in 2021” – to me this sounds just, well he left, he retired or so.
Interesting with all “freedom, truth advocators, researchers, podcasters” is how they invite and promote each other now constantly. I liked watching the low member YT channel Heys Reviews – suddenly he teamed up with and strongly promotes M for the CTTM book-club. All CTTM fans in and clapping, as you say, all gullible believers in everything, no questions, no discrepancies noted by them. They don’t mind a paywall for substack. Same with Sheep Farm Studio YT channel – giving M a stage and deleting critical comments not really questioning anything with her, just applauding. Dr Michael Yeadon too, Delingpole, David A. Hughes. A circle of friends
To keep a memory alive, to promote the good work or “legacy” it only needs open archives, no preambling and no money as the man has given it up (dead or departed / retired). But it is and always was a business and, therefore, expensive flash drives and monthly subscription fees are needed. Depending on how many people are still involved, maybe now more than these 11 marked with the AW media company. Interesting too is that there always were and are (true or not) so many “volunteers” doing the videos, uploading, streaming, clearing old audios, preparing material for the flash drives and doing the graphics for CTTM (mentioned in podcasts that their names will show, never did). They are given out as fans, maybe they also belong to this company? They all are like Mark the chiropractor, retired with loads of time and apparently rich? Don’t need to work, have family ties/chores?
One of these helpers broke up with M: Warlyndi aka Diana the transcriber. She seems real and honest when she talks but don’t know her. And the 2 interviews with her from Real History have been deleted on all channels since. By accident I saw on the debess Bitchute channel a comment from her like “Please contact me, I have questions, I was friends with MR for the past 3 years (only! Although she was transcribing AW shows for 17 years! And back then no friends with M?) but ended our friendship. I have found out some things about M.” I found this so strange as I have listened to M’s podcast with her before that I screenshotted that. Next day the comment under Debess bitchute was deleted.
Warlyndi has meticulously mapped out and created series of themed videos like The authors, The controllers, The experiments, Signs and Symbols etc. – I liked these edited versions very much. So why donate to CTTM when the work is done by “volunteers” (if true)!
She says that here:
S1 EP4 — Structure of Channel – YouTube – warlyndi
Contact Info for Diana [email protected] website: warlyndi.com — Alan Watt’s web site cuttingthroughthematrix.com AlanWattCTTM / @alanwattcttm7266 My Interviews “Real History” with Melissa Ep …
And I think the “shack” – on Google map it shows two houses there – might just have been the business location of CTTM / AW Media Inc. and living was maybe next door in the bigger house with the satellite dish on top of the roof. I saw one photo on a AW video from a private creator with a picture stating “AW’s driveway and Hamish” – looking on Google maps the dog runs down the private driveway from the big house to the “shack” – one can see it comparing the satellite view. The man living there now has put up a video on YT! No comment, just showing the driveway and the house (that is the house M also showed in Fortitude as being without running water etc). How come no neighbour ever noticed who lived there before and who died there. Well, research here is kind of fun.
So being poor or not… rather not. It is big business for donations as the AW Media Inc. report shows in (old) figures. There is an Ontario business company number with his company but I have no access to the register to check for actuality.
Yes, there is a business feud going on about money, not convinced that it is about any relationships. All involved are way over 60 – how long do you hold grudges or jealousy. I think it is just about money.
Not worth listening to the CTTM channel products now if one is looking for AW content as his original podcasts are on Internet Archive and still on the CTTM website under the respective years of publishing. The new YT channel has not much to do with the previous content but maybe moves into sort of book-club reading or so.
I will keep checking into your website and see what else you will find out over time and put on your site. Will be interesting.
Regine
PS
In Sheep Farm Studio Interview and previous other one M now added AW had a medical profession (I think that was what John McCormick was mentioning in his comment “The lowdown on Alan”- what you listed above) – before in the Fakeology interview of 2022 together with Weston they could not answer any question, anything! What he worked before, the bio, the bands he played for, the countries he travelled, why he ended up in Canada etc. And the host did not dive deeper and question them. Now she has stories about his parents and his education (a bit). Maybe he gave her permission now.